god is really powerful n he doesn't just answer your prayers. He answers them more than u expects. U know. A private prayer for favour with friends to have lesser conflicts and to forget my past. Thats all i did.
Friday. Went evans road, ccab for polo match. I didn't even know where's it. Till i alighted the bus. The scene. The trees. The familiar shops. I was so pumped up for the game i thought i was gonna play, suddenly i saw the shop. Mr prata. The long long long stretch of road leading straight down to mr prata.
My reminiscence hit me. From the bottom of my heart, the deeply hidden memories reignited again. I just stopped walking and my surroundings changed. I saw, i saw another me. On the opposite side of the road.. It was.. It was raining very heavily.. I saw myself running with this girl. Holding her hands with my right hand, and using my left hand to shield her head from the rain.. I still remembered vividly the dress she was wearing. The blue n black checkered dress..
I stood frozen in place. Seeing myself running with her to mr prata. Her previous working place. Just to try the types of 300flavours prata. The first time here was with her. The second time was here. Now. Alone.
The scene changed again. I was. Alone. The sky was bright and breezy again. I blinked and continued walking down this road. My head empty. My heart. Aching. Y i asked myself am i hurting?
Memories just memories i answered my self. As i reached the end of the road, i turn right into ccab. Looking back over my shoulders at the florescent sign board of mr prata. I locked those memories of peiyi n me away.
Yet god gave me a chance to meet some1 else at worktoday. This girl.when i Sec1 she jio me. I reject her foolishly. Ppl like wx gabriel tek long will know. Remember sec1~2 we went science competition? Seow teng? I reject her that time. Haha today saw her at my workplace. After 3to4years. She's changed.
Thirdly..
Now.. Life is wierd.. Its like.. This thing happening to me makes me so happy, but although its just the beginning. I'm afraid i'm thinking too much. Maybe i just am. But if i'm not? I'm really afraid to commit and desert singlehood again.. Definitely definitely. This girl.. I wonder.. I thought everything had been planned by u lord. And everything will happen in ur perfect timing. But this girl.. Is she the one? She's nice to me...
Naturally, unconsciously i'm nice to her too..
Just allow my holy spirit to guide me.. I'm afraid to commit.... Year2, waterpolo competitions especially year2. This two things already make me busy enough as it is. Just like with peiyi work n stupid pool. Now i've quit pool STUPID POOL. na~maybe i'm just thinking too much. But.. The way things are revolving now.. Answers are.. Self denial.. =x *vexed. Yes girls can be understanding but... I'm experienced enough to know how much a girl's patience n understanding can last. Even your girlfriend. Lest patience n understanding, love on its own melts and fades too...
But only if it can be true.. But only if this had been plan by u abba. Show me lord.. Just show me
